Thursday, April 30, 2015

FFW (part A)

FFW (part A):

My cats are always hungry. They would eat three cams of food a day of they could. One time I came home to find that one of them (Rajah) had knocked over a bag of dry food that was rolled up and left out. We hid it after that. 

When I was really young and my mom was trying to convince me to play the violin I'm pretty sure she told me I would never have to skip any strings. I was reassured and have now been playing since I was seven. Some point into practicing though, I had to do exactly that and as a person who remembers this type of random thing, I told her about it. She denied she said it but I'm pretty sure she did. It was tough for me to do that, at least back then. 

One day I went to see A Fault in our Stars with a fairly large group of friends from middle school. It was near the end of our last year together. I don't remember much about the movie but the theater was filled with mostly girls. Also that movie theater, The Pavilion is just not a very good movie theater, just close to us. But after the movie I walked home alone, everyone else lived in a different direction. It was getting dark  and I just thought about death for a while. 

My grandfather died not too long after that. It feels so weird visiting family in McAllen now, it's kind of empty  with only Tita in the house. That's my grandmother, I guess I've called her that my entire life. My grandfather was Tito. I remember on his first birthday after he died my dad told me and showed me a picture of him. I started typing, to ask him if we were going to video call him. Then I stopped and realized.

When my dad moved to Arizona with my little brother and sister. Also my stepmom I guess. I first "officially" heard about it in a the blue Prius on the way to Wilmington station. I was going to take  Amtrak back home to Penn Station, passing through Newark and Philly and Trenton and all those. Trenton was a nice station, I used to use it a lot when I lived in Princeton, where I lived most of my life (6 or seven years or something I'm bad at counting). Trenton still uses one of the card flipping timetables. It's hard to describe but if you've seen one you'll get it. Anyway, in the car my dad told me that they were considering moving to Arizona. It was for Jae's new job because apparently her current one want good enough. But then I got a bunch of other reasons. Apparently the weather is good there (well it is if you like 100° summers) and it would be good for my newborn sister. Then I was told that I was more important than all those things. I found out they were moving a little while later again near the train: on the platform right before I left. I couldn't respond. I'm listening to Blue.

When I say "officially" I mean because I had overheard them discussing it a few weeks earlier. A more notable example of overheating was before my

Tuesday, April 28, 2015

How to Feed a Tabbycat, Alleycat, Housecat or Kitten

They will pester you as soon as you get home. I'm hungry, they will say. Feed me. You will want to feed them then. Don't. Don't show any weakness. Don't show any emotion. They can smell fear. Make sure you have food now, you don't want to buy it at night. Hide it, hunger can overcome anything. Wait until it is time. Ignore their pleas. A tabby will be loud, ignore it. A housecat you can expect to come to the track during the last lap, when they complain you know it's almost time. If you can close yourself in a room you should escape and feed them on time. Remember to feed them though or they'll kill you. You made a promise they will scream. Why do you do this to me. Pretend you don't hear them, but give them food. Escape while you can.

Last 4 Paragraphs Observations + Exploration


Monday, April 27, 2015

Negocios Reading Notes


3+4 from class

Don't ask me why this turned out blue, I'm not sure either.

Sunday, April 26, 2015

Objective Correlative

I'm at the lake, it's a pretty cool, fall day but it's just sunny enough to go and swim, as long as you make sure to leave when the sun starts to set. Actually, no, just a bit before the sun starts to set. To be honest, I'm not a huge fan of going to the lake but I go anyways. I dive under the water. I need to open my eyes to see, but when I open them the water burns. I feel like I'm under there forever as it seemingly becomes darker and my eyes burn more than ever. Somehow both gradually and suddenly, the people around me can no longer be seen. The lake has gotten deeper and darker and there is no direction, up and down is all the same. At first I let what currents there are push me around, but soon the burning is too much. I try to close my eyes and find I can't. Suddenly some urgency appears and I start swimming in whatever direction I can. Unsure of how long I was under I suddenly reappear and slowly wade back to the edge. I sit down.

Saturday, April 25, 2015

Tuesday, April 21, 2015

Monday, April 20, 2015

Drown Reading Notes

Also my stupid cat deciding that he's more important than reading notes...

Sunday, April 19, 2015

Tuesday, April 14, 2015